edward sharpe and the magnetic zeros

Elisa introduced me to this song/video. I love it. However, it takes about 5 minutes to search for it whenever we want to watch it. Now I'll have it forever.

Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zero's - A Take Away Show from La Blogotheque on Vimeo.

it was one of those moments...

It started out as a joke but then turned into a wonderful reality. Jessi sang me a lullaby when I was going to bed last night. She played the soundtrack in the background and sang along to it. THEN to top it all off her dog chimed in with little howls. It was the sweetest, funniest, most heart-warming thing I've experienced in a long time.

Note for the world: Jessi Turner is one of the most quality people I know.

india...

I keep seeing things about it. Hearing about it. And reading about it. Sometimes I wonder if that's on purpose. Sometimes I wonder if I'm going to end up in India.

oh future...

Yesterday two people told me that I hadn't written a blog in awhile. This is true. I think it's because the only things I would write about are things that stir deep in my soul. Things that I would share with you, friends, but not things I'd like to announce to the general public.

But here's what I will say... I graduate in 7 weeks and one day. 50 days. Less than two months. And the question of "what's next?" has been quite the lurker. It's only started really stressing me out recently though. Mostly because it's the end of October and I thought I would have it figured out by now.

There are a couple options in the works. And when I say "in the works" I mean in my brain... which is different than actually being in the works (this is a problem, I know).

First option is a non-profit organization that is located right here in Collegedale. They do work in India, Nepal, Bangladesh and Sri Lanka. They have three orphanages, one that works with blind and deaf orphans. They also work with trafficked victims coming across the boarder from Nepal to India. I've watched some of their videos about the work that they do. I can actually feel my heart swelling when I watch their stuff... and when I see those kids. (Please GOD let me go somewhere where I can love children!) I've been talking with this organization about being their writer. And about the possibility of me actually going OVER there and getting content from the field. Um. Dream job. I'll be finding out more about that on Thursday... I hope. But if I did start working for this organization after I get back...do I want to actually LIVE in Tennessee? This is not something I ever thought I would do. Tennessee is soooo NOT where I'm from.

World Vision is also an option. The department that I worked in this summer is adding head count in 2011. Convenient that that's about the time I graduate isn't it? And here's the thing about World Vision... not only is it a wonderful organization that is changing millions of lives... but it is near my NIECE and the rest of my family.

I also could continue to pursue a student missionary position somewhere. Orphanage in India? In South America? In Bangladesh? What about going on the book tour with Emily in February? What about working at Wawona in the summer? Or MiVoden? Or... somewhere else?

So many options that aren't really options! And here's the thing... I just want to do something that I'm passionate about. And I'm aching to serve. And I just want to go. I want to go somewhere where I can do nothing but love and serve. Where my job is to impact people's lives in a positive way. Cause I am a selfish wretch... and I'm tired of being that way. But God is asking me for patience, and I should probably give it to him. He has got a pretty good track record with taking care of my life.

Well look at that, I found something to write about.

florida.

I'm going to Florida tomorrow. It's the first time I've been. You southerners think that's crazy. You westerners... not so much. I'm going to Kalaqua and helping out with a youth conference... and I'm going with a group of people I don't know. New place, new event, new people = a big ball of newness. This is why I chose to go. Oh man, seeking growth has to be so intentional.

I was recently introduced to Mumford and Sons. I got this text from a friend tonight... it's the lyrics to one of their songs:

in these bodies we will live

in these bodies we will die

where you invest your love

you invest your life

I like that. I like it a lot.

alive.

I decided tonight that one of the reasons I love melancholy music is because it makes me feel. I haven't felt anything deep in my gut for a long time. Some people would call this a blessing. Tonight, I'm not so sure.