It happened today.
In the middle of Macy's.
It was probably a combination of things that brought it to the surface. I hate shopping. And more than that, I hate seeing shirts that cost $50 and jeans that cost $100. I hate materialism and I hate that sometimes (ok a lot of the time) I find myself getting sucked into it.
I'm different than I was when I left. Things that mattered before, don't now. And things that do now, didn't before. I feel these differences in my soul, and see them come out in my interactions with some friends. I love the people here, love them. It's just different, I'm just different.
Today, I missed Southern.
Today, I missed being understood.
Today, I missed the people who watched me grow and helped me do it.
Hmmm... strangely enough, I felt I growthed today too. I know growthed isn't a word. Does it need to be if you understand me? Ah, to be understood. Miss you too.
ReplyDeleteTara, even though I'm deeply pained by the photo you chose to display, I'm happy that you missed Southern. I think I can say that Southern misses its little piece of Walla Walla. Even if this Southern can't miss you with his heart. At least his right eye and shoulder miss you. No seriously.
ReplyDeleteOur family has a good thing going eh? Understanding and being understood are priceless.We miss you too!
ReplyDeleteI hate shopping. I hate money. And I hate you not being here.
ReplyDeleteThere is a half-dollar sized spider on the wall and 3 ants crawling on my computer. I wouldn't mind if they were not here.
The thing about growth is that it means you get bigger. Which sometimes is a real good thing. Did you read Sarah's book about arrested development? ;) I think your mind and heart and soul all got bigger this year. I bet the people who don't understand that will grow from you. Maybe they just need a little time.
tara. keep growing. i'm so glad you are here in walla walla. come find me anytime. we'll share headphones and "jog. love emily
ReplyDeleteTara that was a very sweet blog. It was a year for tons of growth for the whole family I think. Thanks for all the good memories :)
ReplyDeleteI miss you too Tara. I wish we were both in Collegedale so if you were feeling down I could tell you to go take of it and then we could hang out afterward. I hope that Walla Walla is awesome for you.
ReplyDeleteI hear ya Tara. I look back and see the changes and growth that occured in me too. I'm glad that we went through some of those changes with the support of each other.
ReplyDeleteThis year will be treasured by all of us for a very long time.
Even by those who love with only their right eye and shoulder. ;-)
I have tears from missing you.
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tara, im sorry that the shopping experience was one that reminded you how shallow people can be, but glad you could use it as a opportunity to see how you have been growing. and happy to hear that you didn't regret coming to sau this year even though you have so much in walla walla!
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